The Faithful Tension

Sermon for the Fourth Sunday in Lent

John 9:1-41

I heard a story about a physics professor who began the first day of his quantum mechanics class in an unusual way:

He looked out at the room full of students and said, “Right now, the difference between you and me is that you understand quantum mechanics and I do not.
But if you study hard and pay attention this semester, by the end of this course you too will not understand quantum physics—just as I do not.”

The deeper someone studies the universe, the more they discover how strange it is.
In fact, the physicist Richard Feynman once said, “I think I can safely say that nobody understands quantum mechanics.”

The more you learn, the more you realize how much you don’t know.
Which is interesting, because most of us tend to assume the opposite.
We assume that knowledge leads to certainty.
But sometimes knowledge leads to humility.



Psychologists have a name for this: the Dunning–Kruger effect. People who know the least about a subject often feel the most confident about it. And the more someone actually learns about something, the more aware they become of how much they still don’t understand. In other words, the first step toward wisdom is realizing that we don’t know as much as we thought we did.

But our culture doesn’t reward that kind of humility. Our culture assumes that mature opinions are strong ones, that faith equals certainty, and that clarity means figuring everything out. The only problem is that the social pressure—to have the answers—can keep us from seeing what’s actually in front of us.



Today’s gospel is about being able to see what’s right in front of us.
In it, Jesus heals a man who was born blind.
But the healing itself turns out not to be the main point of the story.
The real story is about how people interpret what they see.

In fact, the story begins with a question from Jesus’ own disciples.
They see the blind man and ask, “Rabbi, who sinned—this man or his parents—that he was born blind?”
It’s an understandable question. But notice what they are doing.
They are trying to explain what they see by fitting it into a neat category. In that culture, people saw any kind of suffering as divine retribution for sins.
Someone must be to blame. Someone must have caused this.
That instinct—to explain things quickly, to sort the world into clear black & white answers—is something all of us share.

After the man receives his sight, the religious leaders begin questioning him. They want to know how it happened, who did it, and what it means.
And very quickly, three very different responses begin to emerge.
First, there are the Pharisees.

They keep repeating the same phrase:
“We know.”

We know this man is not from God.
We know this man is a sinner.
We know that God spoke to Moses.

They are certain.
Their minds are already made up.

Then there are the man’s parents.
When the authorities question them, they say something different:
“We do not know.”
But the Gospel tells us why they say this: They are afraid.

The religious authorities have already announced that anyone who openly supports Jesus will be expelled from the synagogue. So the parents step carefully. They avoid taking a stand. They say just enough to protect themselves.
“We don’t know.”

And then there is the man who was healed.
He speaks differently from both groups.

At one point he says, “I do not know.”
He admits he doesn’t understand everything that has happened.
But he doesn’t stop there.
He also says,
“One thing I do know: though I was blind, now I see.”

Do you hear the difference?

The Pharisees claim certainty about things they cannot see.
The parents retreat into uncertainty because they are afraid.
But the healed man holds two things together at the same time.

He is honest about what he does not know and truthful about what he does know.
Real faith often lives in that tension.

“I don’t know whether he is a sinner,” he admits.
“But one thing I do know: I was blind, and now I see.”

And as the conversation continues, something remarkable happens.
The more certain the Pharisees become, the harder their hearts grow.
The parents remain cautious and quiet.
But the man who stays honest about both his knowledge and his ignorance begins to see more clearly.

You can watch his understanding grow as the story unfolds.

At first he simply refers to “the man called Jesus.”
Later he says, “He is a prophet.”
Then he goes further and says,
“If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.”
His faith is developing.
Not because he started with perfect understanding.
But because he stayed honest about what he had experienced.

Eventually the religious leaders lose patience with him. They say, “You were born entirely in sins, and are you trying to teach us?”
And then the Gospel says something that would have been devastating in that world.
They drive him out.

Being expelled from the synagogue was not just embarrassing.
It meant being cut off from the center of life. It meant exclusion, isolation, and possibly even the loss of family relationships.
All because he refused to deny what he had seen.

And for a moment, the story becomes very quiet.

The man who was once blind now sees.
But he stands outside the community.
Alone.

Then the Gospel says something very simple.
Jesus heard that they had driven him out.
And then he found him.

That line is easy to miss.
But it is the turning point of the entire story.

The man does not go looking for Jesus.
Jesus goes looking for him and finds him.
And when they meet, Jesus asks him,
“Do you believe in the Son of Man?”
The man answers with the same honesty he has shown all along.
“Who is he, sir, that I may believe in him?”
He still does not pretend to know.

And then Jesus says something extraordinary:
“You have seen him.”

And when the man hears this, the Gospel says,
“Lord, I believe.”
And he worships him.

Think about the irony of that moment:
The people who insisted that they could see clearly remain blind.
And the man who admitted that he did not know is the one who finally sees.

That brings us to the promise at the heart of this story:
We see more clearly, not when we have all the answers, but when we’re honest enough to admit we don’t.
That can sometimes be a lonely place to stand, but it is exactly where Jesus meets us.



The willingness to be both honest and humble, even when we don’t have all the answers, makes a practical difference in the real world, as well as in our spiritual lives.

There was a doctor who lived in Vienna in the 1840s named Ignaz Semmelweis. His name is not widely known today, but he laid the groundwork for huge medical advances that continue to save lives.

While working in the maternity ward, Dr. Semmelweis noticed a disturbingly high mortality rate due to postpartum infection, known at the time as “Childbed Fever.”

These were the days before humans understood what germs are, so the prevailing medical theory was that diseases were caused by the body’s four humours being out-of-balance.

As a man of his time, Dr. Semmelweis did not understand the true cause of his patients’ deaths.
But as a man of science, he knew to trust the evidence of his eyes. He noticed that the patients in the ward run by midwives had a much lower mortality rate than the patients in the ward run by the doctors.

His best guess, after examining the evidence, was that his student physicians were coming into contact with some kind of toxic particles while working on cadavers before coming to the maternity ward.

So, he came up with a creative solution that would go on to revolutionize the practice of medicine and save lives in the future: he had the doctors wash their hands with disinfectant before examining their patients.

Today, we would look at this simple solution and say, “Well, duh!“ but at the time, it was highly controversial. Dr. Semmelweis’ idea flew directly in the face of established medical theory and practice for the time. He was reviled and insulted by his fellow doctors until he had a nervous breakdown.

But years later, Dr. Semmelweis would be vindicated by Dr. Louis Pasteur, who discovered germ theory and made it central to the practice of medicine, as it is today.

Like the man born blind in today’s gospel, Dr. Semmelweis was ostracized from his community for questioning the established orthodoxy of his day, but in so doing, he saved lives. Not just in his own day, but in ours as well.

I invite you to give thanks to God for Dr. Semmelweis the next time you use a bottle of hand sanitizer.

Even though he paid a price for his honesty and bravery, I believe that Jesus was with him, just as Jesus was with the formerly blind man after he was expelled from the synagogue.

Kindred in Christ, I invite you today to stand with Jesus, in the company of those who have been exiled from their families and homes, because they have dared to question the way things have always been, and trusted instead in the evidence of their own eyes.

I invite you to share in the honesty and humility of the man born blind in today’s gospel. I invite you to share in the courage and curiosity of Dr. Semmelweis, who changed the practice of medicine.

I invite you to stand also with President Thomas Jefferson, who rejected the divine right of kings and proclaimed instead: “We hold these truths to be self-evident: That all men are created equal: That they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights.”

I invite you to stand with the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, who had a dream that his children would “one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.”

Each and every one of these people had the humility and curiosity to say, “I don’t know,” to the prevailing prejudice of their day. And they had the honesty and courage to say, “one thing I do know,” to the evidence of their own faith and experience.

From the perspective of this world, they stood alone, but we the people of faith know in our hearts that Jesus stood with them, as he stands with us still, in the faithful tension between what we know and what we don’t know.

When the world demands certainty from us, we answer with humility: “I don’t know.”
When the world demands silence from us, we answer with courage: “One thing I do know, that though I was blind, now I see.”

Amen?

Extraordinary Claims Require Extraordinary Evidence

Sermon for the Second Sunday of Easter.

The biblical text is John 20:19-31.

Once upon a time, there was an expecting mother. In her womb, there were twins. These twins, as people often do when they spend a lot of time together, liked to talk about various things. One day, a particularly philosophical question came up. One turned to the other and asked, “Do you believe there’s any such thing as life after birth?”

“Never really thought about it,” the other twin said, “but I highly doubt it. We’ve never seen anything outside of this place. No one who leaves ever comes back. I think that, when the time comes for us to be born, we just go through that passage and cease to exist.”

“I disagree,” the first said, “I mean, you’re right that we’ve never seen anything outside of this place, but just look at these eyes, ears, hands, and feet that we’re growing! Why are we growing them, if we’re never going to use them? I bet, after we go through that passage, we’ll find out there’s a whole world outside that we’ve never seen before. I have no idea what it will be like, but I have a hunch our time in this womb is getting us ready for whatever comes next.

“That’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard,” said the other. “I bet the next thing that you’re going to tell me is that you’re one of those crazy religious people who believes in the existence of Mom!”

“Well, I don’t think I’m crazy,” the first said, “but, as a matter of fact, I do happen to believe in Mom.”

“Oh, really?” The other said, “Then why don’t you enlighten me, if you’re so wise? I’ve been in this womb for almost nine months, but I’ve never seen a ‘Mom’ or any evidence that convinces me to believe there’s any such thing as life after birth. So then, just where is this hypothetical ‘Mom’ that you supposedly believe in?”

“It’s hard to explain,” the first said, “but I think that Mom is everywhere, all around us. Everything we see in this womb is a part of Mom. So, I guess, it’s kind of like… maybe we’re growing inside of her? You said you’ve never seen Mom, but I think we’ve never seen anything other than Mom. I don’t pretend to have the answer, but I suppose it’s just another one of those things we won’t know for sure until after we’re born.”

There are two things I’d like to point out about this little parable, which I have adapted from Catholic priest and author Henri Nouwen. First of all, neither twin in the story is in a position to know, with any certainty, what the full truth of the matter is. The answers to questions about “life after birth” and “the existence of Mom” are pretty obvious to you and me, who have lived outside the womb for most of our existence, but we can imagine how scary it must have been when we were going through the process for the first time. Even now, uncertainty about “life after death” and “the existence of God” makes us nervous. Maybe someday in eternity, we’ll look back on our earthly lives and laugh at how little we knew back then, but today we can only know what we know, which might give us a little sympathy for those unborn twins and their philosophical questions.

The second detail from that story I’d like us to notice is that the presence of doubt has absolutely no bearing on the twins’ status as beloved children of their mother. She will love them just the same, no matter what philosophical conclusions they draw during their time in utero. In the same way, even the oldest among us are still babies in the eyes of God. Our eternal Mother knows full well that human beings are incapable of answering the biggest questions about reality, so she is able to have sympathy for those who struggle honestly with doubt. Just like those babies in utero, each and every one of us will be loved forever, no matter what we come to believe during our brief time on this Earth.

This means that doubt is not a barrier to faith.

This second fact about Nouwen’s parable of the twins is what I want us to keep in mind, as we turn to look at today’s gospel.

The story of St. Thomas’ encounter with the risen Christ is the most thorough treatment of doubt in the New Testament. Our brother Thomas gets an unfair shake when we use his name to make fun of someone for being “a Doubting Thomas.” After all, Thomas was only doing what any of us would have done, if someone came to us with news that seemed unbelievable. For this reason, I like to think of Thomas as “the patron saint of critical thinkers.” The scientist Carl Sagan famously quipped that “extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence.” I imagine Dr. Sagan applauding when St. Thomas proclaims, “Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.”

The most intriguing aspect of this story is not Thomas’ doubt, but Jesus’ response to it. If John’s gospel had been written by modern Fundamentalist Christians, they probably would have said that Jesus couldn’t appear in the upper room until the other disciples had excommunicated Thomas for his skepticism. If Jesus appeared at all, it would probably be on the far side of the locked door, shouting about how Thomas is a “sinner” and is “going to hell,” if he doesn’t change his mind. But that’s not what actually happens in John’s gospel.

In the real version of the story, the text says, “Although the doors were shut, Jesus came and stood among them and said, ‘Peace be with you.’” Thomas’ doubt, for Jesus, was not a reason to stay away, but a reason to come closer. Thomas’ doubt, for Jesus, was not a reason to offer words of judgment, but a reason to offer words of peace. Jesus doesn’t command Thomas to have blind faith, but gives him the extraordinary evidence he’s looking for.

The presence of this passage in our sacred Scriptures should shape the way we deal with doubts, both our own and those of others. It should help us learn how to accept the process of critical thinking as a necessary part of faith. It should lead us, not to retreat from hard questions, but to advance alongside them.

As Episcopalians, we are blessed with abundant spiritual resources to help us on this journey. The Episcopal Church is part of the Anglican theological tradition. One of the things that makes Anglicanism distinct from some other expressions of Christianity is the way in which we think about our faith. Some other churches see their faith as a monolithic statement by a single and infallible authority. For Roman Catholics, it’s the Pope; for Fundamentalist Protestants, it’s the Bible. But the Anglican theological tradition, as far back as Fr. Richard Hooker in the 17th century, has always viewed Christian theology as a three-way dialogue between Scripture, tradition, and reason.

This way of thinking about our beliefs, sometimes called “the three-legged stool,” means that Episcopalians see our religion as a never-ending conversation. Everyone gets to have a seat at the table, but no one gets to stand on the table and yell at everyone else. Unlike some other religious traditions, Episcopalians do not view their leaders as infallible. We honor our ancestors, but we also believe the Church can be wrong. An interpretation that made sense at one time might stop making sense for future generations. A way of life that seemed just and holy in one century might seem abhorrent in another, and vice versa. This doesn’t mean that “anything goes” in Christian faith and practice, but it does mean that Episcopalians are always open to having a conversation about it.

This understanding of the Christian faith means that Episcopalians can be notoriously hard to pin down when someone asks what our church believes. We frequently disagree with each other, sometimes passionately. The late comedian and devout Episcopalian Robin Williams once said, “No matter what you believe, there’s bound to be an Episcopalian somewhere who agrees with you.”

Finally, thinking of the Christian faith as a three-way dialogue between Scripture, tradition, and reason means that The Episcopal Church is a place where you can bring your whole self to church: Protestant and Catholic, conservative and liberal, believer and skeptic. To all these parts of ourselves and each other, the sign outside our churches around the country proclaims the message loud and clear: “The Episcopal Church welcomes you!”

Whoever you are, whatever you believe, however you identify, and wherever you are on your spiritual journey, you are welcome in this sacred space. That is the message that Jesus proclaimed to St. Thomas in today’s gospel. That is the message that The Episcopal Church seeks to embody every day, as it has for hundreds of years. And that is the message that I hope you hear in this sermon today: That you, with all your doubts and fears, are still a beloved child of God, and you are welcome in this place.

Amen.